anx·ious
–adjective
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1. full of mental distress or uneasiness because of fear of danger or misfortune; greatly worried; solicitous.
2. earnestly desirous; eager
3. attended with or showing solicitude or uneasiness
People lately have been asking me how I'm feel about moving. I think it can all be summed up in one word. It's the first thing that comes to my mind... I am ANXIOUS.
1. I am full of mental distress and uneasiness due to the fear of packing up my house, unpacking in a new place, having to leave my Okie friends, trying to make new friends, having the kids make new friends, settling into a new routine, and on and on and on. I like to hold on to old friends because I feel comfortable with them. I can be myself. I know what to expect. I am worried about having new people get to know me and my quirks and put up with the antics of my cute, but crazy kids.
2. I am earnestly desirous and eager about the new an unknown our Iowa home holds. I can't wait to see what kind of changes are coming our way. In a way, I love love love change. I like things new and fun and exciting. Will we love being in a branch vs. a ward? Will our children thrive and grow to love Iowa like Dennis and I do? Will they look back at this change as a great thing in their lives? Will Dennis love his new job as much as we think he will? Are the kids going to love that they get the opportunity to grow up close to family... grandparents less than an hour away, and tons of cousins as well?
3. I am uneasy about getting our lives in order - getting the girls in school, Andrew in preschool, and getting involved in the community. I am especially uneasy that my parents are leaving on a two-year mission to Papua New Guinea the day Dennis starts work at his new job. I won't get to call my mom any time I need to vent or ask for advice or ask about a recipe, or when I just want to tell her the cute things Sarah/Emma/Andrew/Jared just did.
My life is about to turn up-side down. I am eager, uneasy, and desirous. I am ANXIOUS.
